Over the next couple of months, I’d like to talk with you about how you see your future, what your dreams look like. OK, it’s hard to know what the future will look like on the other side of the pandemic, but we all have dreams, right? We all have ideas as to what our lives will look like in five, ten, and fifteen years, but does your mission match your vision? Are your daily actions moving you closer to what you want?
With so much time to focus on me (way too much time) during the lockdown, something about the way the puzzle of my life was fitting together wasn’t working for me. You know that feeling of something being off? Something weighing on you but not knowing what it is or why? That’s been me.
I would say to friends, “Something’s not working,” but I would just shrug my shoulders and move on in the conversation. Kind of ho-hum. But, it kept gnawing at my brain and my heart. What’s wrong?
Then it came to me: when I think of myself happy I am living a life much different from my current experience. I’m not actively working toward the dream. Bingo! And here I thought I was so smart! How do I expect to get there if I’m not on that mission every day?
Whatever it was that was eating at me has set me on a new path and it’s one that aligns better with the pictures in my head. Whether or not all the pieces fall into place honestly isn’t important. What is important is how I feel inside: I feel settled and focused on the future. All of my stars are in alignment. I have my orders (from myself) and I am focused on my steps to move forward.
I want you to go with me on this “clarity tour.” Are you living your life in a way that will get you where you want to be? Do you need to make changes that will help you get there?
Shirley J says
Yes Paula,
This is timely. I have that same feeling. It feels like that great cliff overlooking the real life we seek. To what? I like to think it is the happiness that we are afraid to finally reach for. When most any personal obstacle that we could name has been removed and that clean slate that we asked for is in our hands, what now? New life. We asked for it didn’t we? Now, what are we going to do with it? And how do we get there?
Regards
Paula says
Shirley, you are so right! I hope you will follow this thread for the next few weeks. I’ve made some decisions that I think will get me closer to the dream! Keep dreaming and thanks for reading Starting Over at Sixty.