Paula
I don’t know about you, but I have gained and lost friends over the years: some by my choice and sometimes it’s been their decision. While I have wonderful, long-term friends, not all friendships stand the test of time, in my book. That’s not always a bad thing…it’s just a fact of life and longevity: sometimes things change. I have certain essential qualities in friends that I look for.
Different Friend Groups
I do have my lifelong friends, and they are worth their weight in gold. They are the ones who are my home, who see me a little bit as I was when I was a kid, a little bit as I was when I was a young adult, and they see me as I am now. They remember my parents, the house I grew up in and my first car. And I remember those things about them. Those are the friends who can even come in and out of my life and we just pick up where we left off.
Longtime family friends are the ones who know me as a wife and mother. They don’t really know me as a single person, they know me as part of a couple.
And, I’ve made some new friends since I have been single, which was necessary. I had to. Until now, my world has been with married people, other couples. I needed some friends who I can call on Tuesday night to get a bite to eat. I have been working hard on that group of friends and I am lucky enough to have those people in my life.
Sadly, I have had friends who have dropped me and friends who I have dropped. Even long-term friends. I can honestly say about myself that if I don’t feel like I can trust a friend to have my back in tough situations, I’m out. Not mad, just out. It might not be my best quality, but it is true. Maybe it’s because I lived with a man who couldn’t be trusted, so I couldn’t tolerate that from anyone else who was close.
So, I have come up with a list of attributes that are deal breakers for me when it comes to bringing someone into my life as a friend or more. Without these, it will not be happening. These are not for people who are acquaintances, these are for those close to me. If you like it, use it in your daily life.
My TICT List
- Transparent: Transparency is maybe the most important attribute for me, and I have my husband to thank for that. I thought I knew him, but who I knew was what he wanted me to know. That was throughout our marriage. And, it wasn’t just the bad stuff: it was anything that he thought I might find questionable was left out of the narrative of his daily life and his life before Paula. So, that is number one On my list. I really didn’t even know that it was a thing…it is a thing.
- Integrity: That’s the core. And, not just the the illusion of integrity but the real deal.
- Communication: It killed my marriage and I am sure it has killed millions of others. The lack of communication is a death sentence for any relationship. I have one son who, I am sure, wishes to never again get the communications lecture from his mother. Without it there is just no way to manage the bumps of life.
- Trustworthiness: It took me a long time to really get a good understanding of trustworthiness. It’s not about telling and keeping secrets. It is about honesty between people. Not “Do I look fat in this dress” honesty (but the answer is always no). But the kind of honesty that lets you know that you are getting the whole story. Not a sugar coated version. That is a trustworthy relationship. Give me the truth.
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Since I am starting over at sixty, I get a do-over…a second chance, late in the game, at life. I don’t take that for granted. It wasn’t the way I thought my life would go, but here I am. So, I am taking control of what I want my life to look like, how I want my days and weeks and months to look for the next 30 years (or more), I hope.
Where to Start: Know Your Step One
In planning what my life will look like I am picking a starting point and working out from there. For me, the starting point is my kids. Not one of them lives in our hometown any longer. Maybe one day, but for now, they are spread out across the country. So, it is critical that I be able to travel to visit them or travel with them often. That is a must, that is my tent pole. So, whatever I am doing, I want to be able to pick up and go. I want to be mobile. A couple of things might make it a little tough, like this guy, my dog Red, but he is my bestie so we are in it together
Be Patient and Work Your Plan
I am not complaining about my age…I love where I am and who I am. But, I do know that time isn’t infinite (something that wasn’t on my radar when I was young). In the past, I have had a tendency to jump in head first. Now, I don’t want to waste any time, so I am more pensive about where I am going and what I am doing.
My children aren’t all settled yet. So I am using this time to get ready for the next phase of life. I am not sure what it is, but I feel a real peace knowing that it will present itself to me at the right time. It sounds kind of out-there, I know, but I really do feel it. I am moving in the right direction.
Visualize What Success Will Look Like
When I use the word success, I don’t mean it in monetary terms. It doesn’t have to be a big house or a lot of money. I mean, what will a day in my life look like if I get what I want? When I got married, I had a vision of what life would look like. When I had children I had an idea of what my life would look like. This is no different. What will success be if I get what I want? As a mom. As a grandma (someday). As a partner (maybe). As a volunteer in the community. As a friend.
I get a smile on my face when I think about it, so I must be on the right path.
Take Action
Now, work your way there. If you want to learn something new, learn it. If you want to look different, work on it. If you want more money, work toward it.
Honestly, I don’t know if any of my plans will unfold, but it’s in the process that I find happiness.
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Repost from 2/2/2016
It is official…I am a Cougar! And all I had to do was turn 60 and pay $2.00.
Since I am 60 and live in Ohio I have the opportunity to audit college classes free of charge at some, if not all, state universities. I wanted to take a class that would really expand my horizons, take me out of my comfort zone, teach me to think differently. So I decided to take…wait for it… Accounting!
I should have taken an accounting class 40 years ago but I did not. I should have taken an accounting class before I bought a restaurant franchise but I did not. So, better late than never. I looked at what I was offered at Ohio State since I am a Buckeye, but it was limited. So I took a look at Columbus State Community College and there it was. In bright lights. Introduction to Accounting. Yes. And, I could even take it online. Even better.
CSCC is just about a block from where I live, but I loved the idea of online class, since that is about as foreign to me as accounting itself. I am now three weeks behind because I couldn’t figure out how to navigate the online learning system. I had forgotten that I took a class at Columbus State about 35 years ago. So to them I am not Pharer…I am Pdaniel. Perfect. I stopped in to the bookstore to pick up my textbook. I guess I didn’t really pay attention to the cost of the individual books as my three children went to undergrad. My textbook was $153.00. Now I am afraid to make a mark in it.
So this week I am playing catch-up, just me and my big, giant, expensive book. The hour set aside for Web Chat is Friday at 7 pm. What? Don’t they know that we “Good as Gold” students are finishing up dinner by then (kidding)?
So, here is the best part. The Columbus State mascot is the Cougar. I am a Cougar! Ironic, don’t you think? Sixty years old, soon to be single and a Cougar.
Can’t wait to try out for Drill Team!
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