Repost from 8/1/2016
One year ago, my husband pulled out of the driveway to go to work, I picked up a truck, packed everything I had room to take with me, and moved out. I was gone by the time he got home. His only text to me was, “Where should I forward your mail?”
I had lived with a stomach ache for a year prior to that. When he refused to sleep somewhere else, I moved to another room. When he refused to leave the house, I knew that it would be me who would have to make the move. It took me quite a while to get used to that idea, but once I did, I was determined to change my life. I still wake up with a stomach ache here and there, but I can handle that.
Most often, I wake up happy. I love my life. I sure didn’t think I would be here at sixty, but now I can’t believe I lived the way I did for so long. I think the biggest change that I have found in myself over the past year has been that I am actually smart. I am actually a nice person. That I actually have value at my age and there are some people who really like me. I am proud of who I am and where I am going. I’m all “Woman Hear Me Roar” about myself and I like it. Now, I may wake up tomorrow and have a big sobfest, but for now…I am happy.
One of my sons wrote me a note a few months ago telling me how proud he is of what I have accomplished in the past year and it shocked me. I really didn’t know that the kids saw that when they look at me. I thought they just saw a Mom who cries when they get here to visit and cries when they leave. The Mom they have to talk to at least once a week. Now…the pressure is on and I love it.
Paula this fabulous. I truly enjoy your blog and I hope you continue. Great motivation and insight!! Love it.
Camille, thank you. Please keep reading…I really enjoy the writing!
I have always admired you Paula. Your drive, your passion, your strong friendships, your sense of humor. I can’t imagine starting over at this point, but you are doing it with such grace and energy. Know that there are many people pulling for you.
Pat
Thanks Pat. I love working with you on your new project and I know it is going to be a huge success!
These are encouraging comments. I need to read these and know you can make it.
You can absolutely make it! Not only will you make it, you will be better than you have ever been. I know you can’t believe it right now, but you will thrive! Take a look at the intro to my new book and let me know what you think.